semi-charmed kind of life. (baby, baby)

so, i figured since both bryce and brendan filled us in on their lives, i might as well do the same. although, i'm not really sure who even reads this blog anymore, so it may be pointless. but, most things in my life are pointless right now, so it blends in just fine.

i wish i had a lot to write, like about a bunch of great adventures that i am going on and hanging out with great friends all the time, but in reality, things aren't that great. here are just a few reasons why my life is in shambles right now:

• on monday i had to wake up at 7am to go to court in downtown Dayton. Let me tell you. This was terrifying. I was surrounded by a ton of pretty scary people. Like. People who have committed actual crimes. (stealing cars, hit and runs, DUI's, driving without licenses..) i was just like "i was in a car accident, i just want to get out of here." that's probably been the highlight of my week so far.
• my dad has been pretty sick lately, and he finally went to the doctors and got a colonoscopy and had a ton of blood work done. turns out he has Ulceritive Collitis. And the doctor was on the verge of hospitalizing him, that's how bad it was. It's really scary. When someone you love is basically falling apart before your eyes and there is nothing you can really do about it. my house feels kind of like a hospital. lots of new foods in the fridge, it's always pretty quiet, my dad is always in bed, and he is easily upset by things, which has a lot to do with all the drugs that he is on.
• since the accident, i have no car. which means there is no point in even job searching anymore, because if by some magical chance i was to actually get a job, i wouldn't even be able to transport myself to and from work. no car = no freedom (when you think about it) let's just say, i've gone on more bike rides than my body wants to. but i guess it's not all that bad, it could be worse.
• all of my friends suck. i swear. nobody wants to hang out with me. everyone is either a.) working, b.) summer school or, c.) on vacation. or they make up some lame excuse about something that they have to do instead. and from this, i've realized this summer what my favorite part of college is. it's all of you guys. it's so much easier to hang out with you guys whenever i want. but at home, i have to make such an effort to even see anyone. that's just not right.
• i haven't talked to matthew in about a week. i know, lame mushy boyfriend/girlfriend stuff, okay. but i really do miss him. lots. and it's hard not having him around to talk to about all these things that are really just crushing me.
• oh and today while sitting outside with my mother, and thinking about all of these things at the same time, a tree fell on my house.

everything isn't totally bad though! i promise. do not pity me for my sad lifestyle. some things are going really well actually!

• i learned to mow the lawn!
• i'm getting paid for yard work and house cleaning!
• i am doing so much art i could vomit!
• i'm staying in shape with ballet and bike rides!
• i hang out with some friends sometimes!
• i went to a record store the other day and bought 3 albums!
• my hair is growing out long!
• i get to see zach and bryce next week!

i guess what my motto for life is these days is

"as bad as things are, they could always be worse"